I feel like starting this post today by saying; you’re pretty amazing. No Seriously. Don’t you dare deny it, because that’s almost the same thing as calling me a liar. And that’s just plain rude. Plus, I don’t waste my time talking to people that I don’t like. And well – ::blush:: – I kinda like you.
Now that the giggle glitter hug party is taken care of… where were we? Ah yes, the condensing and purging of erroneous, ineffectual, and occasionally harmful things. (Yeesh. That sounds dramatic.) If you have no idea what I’m rambling on about, refer back to my last article. Or if you’d rather not do that, OK. Feel free to insert whichever topic you’d like. It’ll be fun. Sort of like a “choose your own adventure” article.
Anyway. So, I’m a little over a month into this process. And, I gotta tell ya, I’m a little taken aback by those things I’ve found to be relatively easy to implement, and those of which that have proven to be much more difficult.
Let’s start with what was easy(ish). Surprisingly enough, it was the food restrictions. To give you a better idea of what that consisted of; this is a picture of an example yes/no food list.
Crazy, right? But, it was for a purpose, damnit. And, honestly, after the first few days, I was able to adjust to this with relative ease. Even managed to survive traveling, family gatherings, AND my sisters wedding without going off list. (I think I deserve a high five for that one, no?) I’ve just recently graduated to the “reintroduction phase”. That’s the fun science experiment portion that I talked about last time. And I’m learning a lot about my body. It’s actually quite fuckin’ fascinating. For instance; I’ve learned that onions give me headaches (random), oats cause minor bloating, and chocolate (in reasonable amounts) slightly elevates my mood. … Ok, so that last one might be a bit of a no- brainer. 😉
The other matter – of which I am astounded by its relative ease – is the process of the thinning of the “friend herd”. That is to say, expunging those people that have revealed themselves to be more of the one-way street variety. The “pink sweaters”, if you will (seriously guys, just read the last article). But I suppose, in hindsight, I’ve already begun fine-tuning that one in recent years and that makes it much less of a full-blown undertaking. And, super bonus points: doing this has made me appreciate the people that are in my life oh so much more. Awwww.
Now on to what I’m finding to be slightly harder tasks… The stuff. I mean, come on! It’s just STUFF, right? Why is this so difficult? To be fair, I have gotten rid of quite a bit.
AND this is only the stuff that I’m donating. There was plenty more that I just straight up threw away. ::Patting myself on the back:: Maybe I’m just being too hard on myself? Is it actually “normal” for someone to hold on to a stack of headshots from six years ago? (What am I going to do with them? Wallpaper my bathroom?) I keep telling myself that everything that I choose to keep, I do so for a real purpose. “Keep those $6 fake glasses from CVS that you had forgotten about. You might get an audition in which they are required”. ::insert skeptical look here:: I may have to have another go at this one in a month or so. Maybe let the shock of the first purge wear off? I know that I need to release myself of the self-imposed fear of “when it’s gone, it’s gone”. Because letting go does not have to be a scary thing!
Now we find ourselves here, my friends, at the keystone of my wobbly archway. These are the undertakings that I find myself to be having the most difficulty with: the process of applying all these lessons to the pursuit of my acting career. I’m going to be honest with you; it sometimes feels like I’m walking through backwood muddy waters when it comes to this topic. As if it’s physically impossible for me to move my feet more than a millimeter at a time. I know that there are some things I’m doing right. But I can’t shake the feeling that I could be doing more (or at least, maybe more efficiently?)
::Sigh:: You know what? I’m going to save this topic for the next article. I think I need a bit more time to ruminate on this one. And let’s be honest, this article is getting a bit long winded.
Yes, I know that you will be waiting with bated breath.
I’ll miss you too.
PS. Bananas are on the OK list now! Woot!
